03/31/2011

Although I got sleep last night, I am still tired.  I could crawl on the sectional and go right to sleep, but with 4 kids that isn't an option.  Today wasn't bad as I worked 1/2 a day.  The pay comes in handy especially since Scott only gets paid every other week.  My pay is weekly, so it is nice when I do have to work.  I want to write in my blog, but right now I am drawing a blank.

Tomorrow I have to work, but the kids are out of school.  So they get to spend the day with their Dad as he will work from home.  Before I knew I had to work, I had planned on taking them to the movies as a surprise (they don't know).  Maybe I will take them when I get home from work which will be about 2:45.

Scarlett is in the process of losing her baby teeth.  It seems like lately when we play tug-of-war with her, her teeth are coming out.  The kids are doing good at helping to take care of her.  It is teaching them all responsibility.  Her love is unconditional and makes you feel appreciated all the time.  Lately when she is in her crate, she will unzip her bed and get inside.  She climbs all the way in where the only way you know she is there is by her wagging tail moving the fabric of the bed.  It is quite funny and makes for a lot of laughs.

Now instead of drawing a blank, my thoughts are all over the place.  I think it's also because I am still sleep deprived from earlier in the week.  I wish that I had something prolific to say, but deep thoughts escape me today.  Which is probably a good thing, since my thoughts are jumping all over the place.  I need a spinner, so that I could spin it and stop on a topic.  Today just seems to be random thoughts in my head.

I went to the library on Monday and checked out a book to read.  Now that I want to read, I probably will have to work and not have a lot of free time.  Maybe I should try reading at night and it may help put me to sleep.  Anyway, it's The Nanny Returns - the sequel to The Nanny Diaries.  Sometimes sequels aren't as good as the original, but it is nice to catch up on the characters.  Hopefully it will keep my interest.  I have 3 weeks to read it before it's due, but then I have the option to renew it two more times.  I think I can get it read by then, but then again you never know.

Well I am signing off for now.  My thoughts are just all over the place and I am not very focused.  Hopefully I will be more focused tomorrow.  Have a great day! 

03/30/2011 - morning

I did not get to sleep until 5am this morning and had to be up at 6.  I am so tired, but I can't sleep if that makes any sense.  I am probably going to hit the "wall" later today.  Sleep is a funny thing, we need it - but it eludes many of us.  Dr. McDonald said that insomnia would be a side effect of the depo-lupron shot and he was right on the money.  Something that our body's need shouldn't be so hard to get.  I've even trying not watching TV in the bedroom to create a sleep sanctuary, but that has yet to help either.  I have Lunesta, but I just don't like how it puts me into a very, deep sleep.  Scott thinks I am getting depressed again.  I don't know, maybe I am.  I know that my sleep is effected when my depression is getting the better of me.  It's something that I will have to keep an eye on.  It could be the shot or depression or a combination of the both.  Either way a nap is calling my name and I think I am going to respond.  I know naps aren't a good thing when you have insomnia because it can keep you from sleeping at night. Right now, I feel like a zombie on auto-pilot.  Well enough of my chatter.....it's nap time!!  Have a great day!!

My Shared Thoughts: First Post on 03/30/2011

My Shared Thoughts: First Post on 03/30/2011: "I am trying my hand at a blog. I figured it would be like an online journal for me. I need to keep myself occupied rather than c..."

First Post on 03/30/2011

I am trying my hand at a blog.  I figured it would be like an online journal for me.  I need to keep myself occupied rather than constantly on eBay buying things that I really don't need or can afford.  I am having trouble sleeping, so I usually shop which isn't always a good thing.  I should be sleeping, but insomnia has gotten the better of me lately.  I could take the Lunesta that I have, but it puts me too much into a deep sleep.  I have decided to keep a blog to try and keep my thoughts and feeling together in one place.  Typing for me is faster than writing in a journal.  I figure this is just an online journal which is productive. 

This will help occupy some of my time rather than constantly being on Facebook, Twitter, and eBay.  A blog is more constructive as well.  I don't know if anyone will read my blog, but I will and that is what matters to me.

A favorite quote of mine is Never Stop Questioning by Albert Einstein.  My favorite number is 7. My favorite things are butterflies. My favorite colors are pink and purple.

I also have to get my butt into shape.  This blog will also help me to get my mind in the right mindset for that.  I have been doing good this week by not snacking.  I have been eating 3 meals and cutting out the snacking.  Now if I could get the motivation for exercising, I would be doing good.  Like they say, take one step at a time.  If you take too many, you will get overwhelmed and quit.

I think this is a good start for my blog and also a good place to stop for today.  I will try and get some sleep before the 6am alarm goes off which is in 2 hours and 15 minutes.  I guess a little sleep is better than no sleep at all.  Have a great night! Tomorrow is another day with endless possibilities.